Nontraditional Me

Parties I have never had either

I found a site the other night while trying my best to avoid doing my homework (yes, at the ripe old age of thirty I am still doing homework) and read a post the so eloquently put many thoughts I have had into writing. Click here for the site which is Lattes and Life. Her post basically discusses how many accomplishments she has achieved and the parties that she didn't receive and how they are unnecessary. I agree I guess because I was never given these things either. It is hard to be the one always behind the scenes. I think back to all the times that I wanted someone to do something for me and it didn't happen and how it hurt my feelings but I must say these things ARE unnecessary. The focus in life is what is important. Whatever you find to be your focus... whether that be work, family, hobbies, whatever you find to give you the most happiness. I know for me my kids and my husband give me great joy (and tremendous laughter) and I love baking and working out. I have put a lot of focus into myself this past year and I have seen how many people in my life characterize this as selfish but it isn't. I am so proud of who I have become. I have lost over 100 lbs and have put a lot of time into working out and it has made me happy. In turn, my degree of focus and obsession with this has made others look at me more negatively. I don't care though. I came from a house consumed with food....always focused on eating and every celebration was filled with food. I know this is true for many people and families but I don't want to have my children growing up to have this as a central focus of a happy time. The way I was raised turned me into an emotional eater and anytime I feel bad I look to food. I am learning and trying to turn this around to eating healthier foods instead of the sweets that I desire. I guess I am just rambling here but it was nice to know that I am not the only one who didn't get the "traditional" celebrations. But I have always been proud of the fact that I am not a traditional girl!